May
I just say that I thought growing to be an "empty nester" would be a
happy day - after having put in decades of raising kids and sacrificing
all for them, I would finally get to focus on my dreams of oil painting,
genealogy, etc. I thought it would be easy because I had things I
wanted to do!
However, I am finding it is the hardest part of raising kids for me - letting them go. Not that I don't let them go, but that I DO let them go, because it's the right thing.
I don't like it! Not one bit!
I don't like thinking back to when all the messes and noises were being made...In a nostalgic manner.
I don't like thinking that, just as we all do, they will move on, away from Bob and me, away from our family home, and live their own lives, and get involved with their own, their spouses', and their kids' lives and we'll be just the "once in a while" thought of "Oh, maybe we should go visit Grandma and Grandpa". I will no longer be the one they come to when they have bad dreams. I will no longer be the one they talk with late at night, when everyone else is in bed and they have something on their mind or heart or just something exciting to share. I will no longer have to quell fears of "my friends don't like me" or "no one asked me to dance" or "so-and-so was really to me today" or "how do I ask a girl out?" I will no longer have those little opportunities to talk about gospel topics while driving in the car, or here at home, as things in life come up.
I will no longer have someone to run errands for me either! haha.
No sir. I do not like this business of kids growing older and leaving home and building their own lives away from their Mama.
Yes, I'm happy for them. Yes, I'm excited to see what the future holds for them. Yes, I pray like crazy that their spouses of choice will fit in nicely with our family. Yes, I look forward to Christmas with my kids, their spouses, and all their kids here at "Grandma and Grandpa's".
But can't they do all that while staying single, young, and at home still?
They're very selfish creatures, aren't they??
Sniff. I guess I'll go paint, or do genealogy or something like that. Sniff.
However, I am finding it is the hardest part of raising kids for me - letting them go. Not that I don't let them go, but that I DO let them go, because it's the right thing.
I don't like it! Not one bit!
I don't like thinking back to when all the messes and noises were being made...In a nostalgic manner.
I don't like thinking that, just as we all do, they will move on, away from Bob and me, away from our family home, and live their own lives, and get involved with their own, their spouses', and their kids' lives and we'll be just the "once in a while" thought of "Oh, maybe we should go visit Grandma and Grandpa". I will no longer be the one they come to when they have bad dreams. I will no longer be the one they talk with late at night, when everyone else is in bed and they have something on their mind or heart or just something exciting to share. I will no longer have to quell fears of "my friends don't like me" or "no one asked me to dance" or "so-and-so was really to me today" or "how do I ask a girl out?" I will no longer have those little opportunities to talk about gospel topics while driving in the car, or here at home, as things in life come up.
I will no longer have someone to run errands for me either! haha.
No sir. I do not like this business of kids growing older and leaving home and building their own lives away from their Mama.
Yes, I'm happy for them. Yes, I'm excited to see what the future holds for them. Yes, I pray like crazy that their spouses of choice will fit in nicely with our family. Yes, I look forward to Christmas with my kids, their spouses, and all their kids here at "Grandma and Grandpa's".
But can't they do all that while staying single, young, and at home still?
They're very selfish creatures, aren't they??
Sniff. I guess I'll go paint, or do genealogy or something like that. Sniff.
My once-upon-a-time, when we used to have kids that loved going to the zoo when it wasn't "just for little kids"
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